June is almost over

Well June is almost over and I am still alive. Considering the last six months that is an achievement. I moved the family into a dump. Utilities are NOT cheaper but the ward is nicer and Cyrus's commute time is shorter so everyone isn't holding it over my head. The house is larger but not as nice.
5 of my 9 Grand kids have moved it Wyoming. I feel like my heart moved with them. It is hard to believe that they weren't killed in some horrific accident. I talk to them on the phone and am looking forward a really nice road trip to see 7 grand kids and kids and aunts and uncles but you know how money goes. I miss Payton and Kasey also. They look like they are getting so big. It is so hard when you aren't around. Rusty is just over 60 days until he can leave the dusty country of Iraq and come home to Nicole and the kids.
Tristan and Becca are getting ready for Colton's arrival in August. That will be exciting. He has really given Jodie fits this time. Being pregnant over 30 isn't as easy as it was in your late teens early 20's
I am still trying to find a job that I can do with my disability so if anyone knows of one let me know.

Feburary NO time for hearts and love

Well we are trying to get everything over to the new house and NOT lose anything. It seems like we are stuck in the middle and may lost half of our belongings. That makes me sick. I just wish that someone could help someone old and disabled in a move. No one exists.
We got fired from our job. It was coming apart. Life is getting harder all the time. I know my Heavenly father knows me and loves me but I feel the distance these days

January Freeze

Christmas was a welcome diversion. It is so hard to be poor and disabled at christmas when you have kids depending on you. I had to christmas beg and I was able to get a wonderful feast and a gift for each kid and a christmas card for me. It was wonderful. I got 3 pairs of pants that you can't see through and spent the rest on food.
Life is getting better. Our house was classed and not up to code and I found a better house although logistically it is a bit cumbersome for 4 months.
My work is falling apart but it is the only job I can do and makes me feel productive even though no money has ever been seen. I feel like I am getting cheated because I am a good trusting person.

Hello

Hello this is my new Blog. I just wanted to start out and hope that I can help people the way that some blogger helped me. I was down and out and I mean every way. I didn't have money for food for thanksgiving and nothing to be thankful for. Sacramento Joe offered me hope. He sent me a thanksgiving dinner and with that everything changed. No I am not rich in money but someone cared for me. It was powerful.

Just in the time since Thanksgiving the following things have happened. I have found a bigger hopefully warmer house for my family, I found my birth family and I am happy.

I still have the negativity around me. But in the deep crevices of my mind I know that someone out in Sac town cared about me.

There is a lot of bad things happening this Christmas. Scary things. Never have I had less to give my grand kids and never have I not cared as much about it. Warm clothes and blanket and food are short in supply so presents are not going to happen. But we have each other and LIFE IS GOOD